- an abbreviation for:
- the term I most often use for what I had badly for 12 years, and now less so, but it's like saying:
I have "I'm feeling very unwell" syndrome.
- who's going to believe it, or be able to place it in a credible frame of reference?
Maybe that's why it's essentially been handed over to psychiatrists, against better advice, but with lots of lobbying from US insurance companies, who have thus avoided big payouts to better insured people than me who just suddenly got inexplicably very ill, like I did. None of the scores of test I had could identify what was wrong, why I was feeling like this:
Before this happened to me, I too was somewhat cynical about inexplicable illnesses. Then I lived through 12 years of waking up every morning to the continuing nightmare of my ill body. I tried so many things to get better, and nothing really worked, so I kept returning to working at acceptance, and getting on with life as I could anyway. The remedy that finally seems to've worked for me was completely surprising to me: eating as high a proportion of raw food as possible.
the search for causes
- is inevitably haphazard, and full of dead ends. I gave up reading " Osler's Web ", it was too depressing for me. I decided that if a cure arrived for me, it would probably be unexpected, and that seems to've been the case. Still, I'm a scientist, and I understand the value of systematic research efforts.
universality of illness
I personally found buddhist teachings superbly apt, and, in my long and necessary periods of rest I reflected a lot on the feeling of loss that all illness can bring. I reminded myself constantly that this is the order of things, we flourish and decline, like everything else. This kind of thinking helped me to reduce my psychological suffering, and continues to be useful in new predicaments that I face now that my health is more normal again.